Like everyone else, my ego started to develop a few months after birth. It happened slowly, as it does, and sure enough I learned how to be my separate self. I learned from my family and friends. I learned from school, and later from work. I even learned from church!
What I learned is that I should generally make things all about me. Not exclusively of course or in a hurtful way, but I definitely needed to look out for Number 1! I also learned to value money and possessions, position and power. So, I spent decades pursuing all of those things. You know, houses and cars and clothing and boats and art and...But, they didn't make me happier. I found, gradually at first, that happiness only came from family and close friends and the experiences we had together. Now that all of the houses and stuff are gone, I realize I don't miss them at all!
My journey to understanding my ego, and my soul, really started in the summer of 2012. Through a period of reading and meditation I came to the very sudden realization that the real me is my soul, not my ego! And, that my soul is from God, is based on pure unconditional love, and is eternal. It is impossible to describe this initial awakening, but I could take you to the very small apartment in London in which I was living at the time.
Much deeper understanding of my soul, and of my ego, came recently when I read The Seat of the Soul. You can see it here below.
